If only...

108.6 lbs :)

only 3.6 to go until my next goal weight! bring it onnn

Had 2 small binge/purges earlier, and now I feel shit.

The worst thing is I can’t even fast tomorrow like I usually would. I should be able to get away with just one small bowl of soup for lunch, and one boiled egg & salad for supper. I’ll just refuse to eat anything more. That’ll be 160 or so calories, I can handle that.

Dreading my weight tomorrow morning…

109.4 lbs today!! Don’t know how the hell that happened, but I double and triple checked and it’s for real :) :) very very happy.

Also, just managed to avoid breakfast, so all I need to do is stick to soup later and I’ll defo be able to stay under 200 cals. And I’m going shopping today so that means lots of walking (and new clothes!)

Oww, my parents went out tonight and I binged and purged. Great. Not looking forward to my weight tomorrow.

And now that I’m home I can’t even fast tomorrow like I usually would. I refuse to go over 200 cals though, I don’t care what my parents say. 2 bowls of soup (120 cals) and one clementine is the plan. Nothing else.

And then I need to stick to 300 cals a day after that. I have to be 108 lbs at least by Friday. 

Urgh still 111.8 today. I don’t understand, I barely ate anything yesterday, just 2 tiny bowls of soup (110 cals?) and some fruit salad.

And my Mum’s dragging me to the doctors today, and I just know they’re going to tell me I’m too fat to have an ED. 

111.8 this morning :) under 8 stone at last!

Hopefully by Friday I’ll be 110 as I’m just eating soup at the moment really, and keeping it under 200 cals.

Just had a bowl of soup (90 cals) and an apple (70) and now i feel fat and bloated. How is that possible? I might have one more apple tonight, but that’s it. Need to be strong and not give in to any temptations… 

112.6 lbs! Ahh so close to my next goal weight…

I’m going away to visit some friends at their uni this afternoon, but they all know about my ED so I’m just planning on eating apples this weekend. I really wanna be 111 lbs or less by monday morning, so I need to seriously stick to this and not be tempted by food. 

FFs, somehow I’m still 113.6 this morning, not happy. Ok, fasting again today. Then hopefully I’ll still manage to be 112 or thereabouts tomorrow morning. 

Intake today: 2 apples (140 cals), M&S calamari (150 cals) - total = 290

Feeling fairly happy with today’s intake. Now I just need to have still lost weight in the morning, then maybe I’ll start to believe that I can eat a little bit without gaining…

113.6 :) at this rate I should be somewhere under 113 by tomorrow morning! I just need to see 112…

New lowest weight… 114.8 this morning :) :) I could literally cry with happiness, I was so terrified I’d still be 116. 

Only 2.8 lbs to go! This has definitely given me the motivation I needed to keep on fasting. Hopefully by Friday I’ll hit 112 :)

Day two of fasting = complete

I swear if I haven’t lost weight in the morning I will actually cry. Just need to fast again tomorrow, and then I can start eating soup & fruit. I just want to be 112 lbs so badly.

Somehow my weight was the same this morning as it was yesterday, even though I fasted yesterday… not happy.

But after today and tomorrow of fasting it hopefully should be down to under 115 lbs. Just need to stay strong, and enjoy feeling empty and in control.